HEAVEN KNOWS
Rick Price

She's always on my mind
From the timeI wake up
Till I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know

And though she's so far away
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holdin' on

So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breakin my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

My friends keep telling me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in time
I'll know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave
I'm shakin' inside
Why does it hurt me so

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows
Heaven knows
Heaven knows

this song happens to be played today during on our way home...
and i told jas this song used to be i like de....
so happen let me recall of ytd incident abt him...my birthday...
weird feelings when i receive the msg.....hesitate to reply .....
cos dunno what or how to.....memories flash back once again....
is painful and hard to forget....it really hurts though...
is nice that he still have xin to rmb or knw my birthday....
and i do knw, can feel that he really hesitate very long to take this first move....
weird feelings around me.....confused??
jas suddenly ask me this afternoon....do i still xi huan ta ma???
at that moment in time....sort of dunno how to ans....
and i told her.....is time for me to let go.....

ytd when jun fu return me the PM book...realise that he is acting weird...
bt i din really go borther abt it.....only when jas ask me abt PM qns...
then i start to flip the book....guess what at that moment then i realise that...
there is a birhtday card inside....given by jun fu, andrew and jun kai......
was very surprise and shock.....although is bought in hastily...bt it is very cute....
and nice of u all.....

thanks candy and shingo for the surprise....
bought birthday cake for me....very sweet of u two...
the cake very nice...

guess what the day before my birthday was packing my room...
the bottles of stars for our first months...
and the first my birthday that we celebrate together...
the puzzle that u spent s few nights making for me....
is still in my room...
i saw it....and many thoughts come to my mind.....
sometimes i really feel funny abt myself...
why am i crying when posting this post???....
when i am not surpose to???....
heartache >.<