back to blog
have been many weeks ever since i blog
during the past few weeks,
is like everything happen so faster
din even have the time to recall or what
of couse for those who knw
the "BIG NEWS" actually somehow still affect me
even though has been very long liao
may be just too sudden and surprise ba
hope i can overcome it as soon as possible
hoping to have my life back

stupid msn monday evening
crash, problem cant be solve
one word complicated
the night before, dam dan xin whole night nvr slp
which causes unwell
even the IT helpdesk cant even solve
no choice, using ebuddy now
only when using desktop then use msn ba

yea i was very very down
things haven been going smoothly ever since
sch start,
stress and worry abt IHP
xin fan which leads to unwell
ytd was the worst thing i had
2 things happens all at once
like going to collapse anytime

later getting my pay and
thursday meeting up my colleague
think will talk a lot ba
all i need is just to be strong?

歌名：二缺一 歌手：蔡卓妍
Cantonese version

每晚回到家里 快半残废身躯
入睡床没法睡 杂念来又去
往往仍记起你 过去共你一起 所经过多得可以 编写几次传记
分享我的兴趣 分担我各样顾虑
在绝处一刻拥抱 等於给我圣水
你去后令我发现 笑声有罪 踏步 也失去
剩下自己 怎可走到尾
遇挫折孤身撑起 好东西独自回味 醉极仍是剩下自己 彷佛单脚企
任我再努力逃避 终需约定没余地

假使我昨日 单身走过去 没有经历和你 一起的壮举
今天要我独居应不会 难受到想死去 惯了共你一半 吃喝共你一碗
是幕僚是友伴 幸运和自满 这晚上再想你 记挂共你一起
初经过的多麽美 多麽回肠荡气
分享我的兴趣 分担我各样顾虑
在绝处一刻拥抱 等於给我圣水
你去后令我发现 笑声有罪 踏步 也失据
剩下自己 怎可走到尾

遇挫折孤身撑起 好东西独自回味
醉极仍是剩下自己 彷佛单脚企
任我再努力逃避 终需约定没余地
假使我昨日 单身走过去
没有经历和你 一起的壮举
今天要我独居应不会 难受到想死去
实在是世事难料 剩下自己怎可走到尾
遇挫折孤身撑起 好东西独自回味

醉极仍是剩下自己 彷佛单脚企
任我再努力逃避 终需约定没余地
追逐前事剩下自己 怎可走到尾
(ha~多麽多麽的想你)
遇挫折孤身撑起 好东西独自回味
(极痛恨遗憾的)
醉极仍是剩下自己 彷佛单脚企
(我会试试今天起)

任我再努力逃避 终需约定没余地
(习惯剩下自己)
假使我昨日 单身走过去
没有经历和你 一起的壮举
今天要我独居应不会 难受到想死去

JDrama : Ghost Friends
Aitai by Yuzu
Translation from Jap

If you are granted a wish

What kind of wish will you make?

I probably can answer without any doubt

That I want to see you once again

In the season which the outside is colored with flower petals

The flowers are vividly in full bloom again this year

Under this scenery which you love

I am walking by myself

Due to misunderstanding, we hurt each other

Even back in those days when we were still young

We knew that we were embraced by true love

I want to see you

I want to see you

I won't forget

Even now, you are still inside my heart

Thank you Thank you

I can't express enough

My thought, somehow, I want it to reach you

The morning sun shines on me and I squint my eyes

A brand new day has started

Once I realize, I have been looking here and there

for you, whom is no longer here

Without saying anything, you smile
That's gentle smile of yours
has teach me the joy and pain of living
many and many times

Overflowing overflowing
It cannot be described by words
Staring at the sky
I think about you
We cried, we laughed, we walked together
The footprints will never disappear

Ah Round and round, the destiny of reuniting

If I am granted a wish, please once again, let me...

I want to see you
I want to see you
I won't forget
Even now, you are still inside my heart
Thank you Thank you
I can't express enough
My thought, somehow, I want it to reach you

Your voice, your warmth, your gentle smile
They are all still in my heart
I want to see you

Have been watching this Japan Drama

call the "Ghost Friends"

very nice and interesting storyline

我不想忘记你 歌手：claire

我在向前走却像在退后
我在用想念狂欢寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄

我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

一个人不懂什么是拥
有两个人不懂怎么把握
越在乎就越脆弱
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄

我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

finally i get the ans of what i have been thinking sometimes
is either i read it or meet it face to face
the feeling in me was
totally speechless, something heavy stuck in my heart
undescrible feeling, some pain in it, crying
in my mind was full of quesitons, memories, after break up that critical period
even till this moment of time
and i dunno how to describe
该是时候画上完美的据点

James Morrison : You Make Me Real Lyrics

Mmmmm
There's so much craziness, surrounding me
There's so much going on, it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me
You make it real for me

When I'm not sure of, my priorities
When I've lost site of, where I'm meant to be
Like holy water, washing over me
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
You are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong, but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance, and uncertainty
But I can find the words, you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for meee, yeaaa

And I'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who saved me
That's whyyy I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

Ohhh
Everybodies talking in words
I don't understand
You got to be the only one
Who knows just who I am
Your shinin in the distance
I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place
That I want to be
Is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more
I have to learn
But if you're here with me
I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere,
Somewhere I can learn
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

You make it real for me

today first day of sch also first day of sch attachment
dunno why my heart keep very worry gt the sense of crying
first thing entire to the class according to the time table
bt then feel unsecure whether or not did i enter the right class
everyone was so unfamiliar,the lecture too

lucky with the lecture explain and with the help of jas
finally understand how the room systems goes
haiz..blur me >.<

now have been in there from 9am to 5 or 6 pm later
first think is rotting here, dunno where to start or
what to do, then went for early lunch
have a short msging with one of my sec mate
was wondering how his first day of sch in Ngee Ann
seems like he does really like or have adapt ba
bt his study hours was dam long, was shock after hearing from him

finally our rescurer comes, haha that our kelly
with the help of her organising,explaing and guide
at least now we all have the idea what and how to start
seems like now every day gt to go home do home work liao
and now slacking in there
playing,listerning music,BLOGGING
diao...

most angry thing is i cant contact my superisor
he is MIA again dam sian, everytime like that
ask for his number, end up he reluctant to giv me
how can like that de, if emergency how sia
i first one to jump sian sian sian
dun wan this supervisor arhhhh.......

back to blog,
went sch for attachment briefing sun bian take ezlink card
dam ugly the ezlink card, orange and still gt background de
eeeee...
after that went for briefing ab attachment, sian
somehow very dam xin abt this sem 5 de
it consists of 25 credits, very heavy weightage ah....
somemore with it XXX, stress and worry...hope nothing goes wrong
will be starting sch on 20th, everyday 9am to 5pm,say long not long
say short not short >.<

after briefing, went LAN shop with jas
she play L4dead, and guess what i play
if time enter LAN shop, play facebook, listern song etc
dam funny,jas and i was laughing,
she see my look already very funny
have fun there, watching her play too

tmr will have to meet my boss
11 30am at city hall MAC
hope i wont get lost there
strange to me, seldom go there
just to return some stuff and time card
will meet her another day to get my pay
sian arhhhh.....

friday will be going out with jas, candy and few more friends
to sentosa, will be have funny there
enjoy our last few days of holidays
chong fen de li yong wahahaha

Tank 全世界都停电(爱就宅一起插曲)
作词：姚若龙 作曲：Tank(吕建中)
编曲：洪敬尧

连你都会残忍隔绝 我的心能要谁了解
眼中烛光摇晃着熄灭
为何把我推向边缘 被砸坏了的一切
卡住了我让我无法往前

囚禁在距离笑声最远的房间
独隔离 寂寞地盘旋

全世界都停了电 全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面 被贴上黑夜
我呐喊思念 却没人听见
绝望到极点剩的是疲倦

全世界都停了电 全世界白雪满天
才发觉在我心间 有回忆碎片
一作梦翻身 就刺痛流血
我卷着身体缩成一个圈 像一个句点

one of my sec sch friend post those photos and the video
which they have make during the last year of the sec 4
now looking back, was watching the video just now
some how my heart aches, feel like crying while watching
suan suan de, although there are many obstacles in my life during sec sch period
think i still miss the "shi guang" with them ba i guess,
the moments we have fun, going through tough period together
most important are those teachers that have taught us,
i really miss them, although i seldom go back to visit them.
really miss my the other form teacher Miss Debbie Hing
if possible gt time go her house find her haha :P

count down 4 more days to quit working, there goes my work haha
ytd went to work, time pass ok, bt no people de, dam sian haiz
things to update
on monday brother's phone gt problem
dunno why the touch pad no light
end up mum ytd go back to the m1 shop
to ask what happpen, think the phone is spoilt
they change a new one for him
feedback was heard that the best phone are nokia or sony erricsion
hmm, make me feel shaken ba i guess
anyway my sec friend tag me some of the photos taken in sec sch
thinking back, look a bit strange ba
haha below is one of my exam look taken from my form teacher
while i am doing my math exams script, if i am not wrong, ugly ba >.<

during this working period, remember tell one of my colleagues
regarding my sch uniform have change, what i am wearing in the photo
is the last badge of the student uniform.Guess should be consider lucky ba
anyway they have change their uniform, feel a bit akward ba, not nice.
that day went back to sch, thing in there have change alot
appearance wise was totally different.Teachers were all gone too.
time really flys, 2 years gone, 3rd year coming soon....haiz

blogging once again
first time knw that name someone
wont mention in details
just find it funny
today someone told me that i look very "cold"
in chinese heng leng when first saw me in this new working place
dun dare to talk to me, even if first time talk to me also very frightened
btw am i really that "cold" when first saw me?always leave that impression in yr mind?
i wonders, anyway we were having a small chat
then someone say after chatting then realise that i am not that "cold" after all
easy to communicate, "when i smile is better than not".
hmmm this sound familar to me, someone did said to me before
haha :P

may be i need time to adapt to new environment
i feel frightened going to new place or attending to new people
may be that why feel "coldness" in me towards anyone first saw me
count down 1 weeks and 1 day more to go before quiting my job
jia you >.<

the other staff that i meet her before from the previous branch
meet me ytd in this new branch
and ask me again, am i singaporean or wat?
same qns again haiz >.< think i gonna doing someting abt my looks sigh

back to blog

brother change his handphone to this Lg KF750

mum bought for him with just addtional of $48 dollars

with the 2 years plan contract

for me last time i din like Lg brand de handphone and touchpad too

bt then now after figuring out his handphone

i finally like Lg cos it can wirte korean Language (words)

so tempting me to change my this coming phone to Lg de

next as for touch pad, i still does not like fully touch pad ba

may be half like this one hahaha

make my heart feel itchy

waiting this sep to change my handphone wahaha

with a sponcer of $48 from mum

today after work, when to my sec sch to visit my form teacher

happy to see him, cos long time nvr go back liao

just nice after meeting, chat with him during his lunch time

chat with him a lot of stuff, btw he gt 2nd child liao

his kids so cute so chubby, 1 years old le, the other one is 6 years old

and btw he have shifted his house to lackshore, very near my house

haha so good, can visit him anytime, xun bian play with his youngest kids

very eager to meet him :P

still gt 1 week and 2 days more to go before i stop work

today was very pek chek, while working suddenly have the feeling to quit immediately

seems like from todays onwards is a torture to me

so sian dragging myself to work everyday dam it , haiz >.<