IS lesson was boring today...so stressful still gt homework to do...ar.....haiz.....went jurong point today after IS lesson with candy........we both buy a eye shadow....buy one get one free.....each is $5.45....i took pink she took bronze first time buy cosmetic together..haha...
bad news is when i reach my house bus stop....i almost gt into accident.....almost knock down by a motorbike.....if not becos the driver horn me there goes me......haiz dunno y this few days or weeks keep meeting this kind of things...haiz....think my heart xin bu zai yan...mind goes blank...
haiz....

the U-turn road was not that obvious...bt yea that the path

that almost kill candy and I...sob sob...scary scary

have fun eating and cooking food

yea that is my classmates...haha all so shy to take photos:P

yeah...that me,candy and yishan see 3 da mei nu (pretty girl)

dun get jealous wor ...haha

OMG!!!HAHAHA!!!! I GIVING KISS TO CANDY:P

yea that were those photos that we took during our class outing ytd having steamboat for dinner.....having fun and enjoy eating the food.....spend $18 dollar eating at bugis...next time ask daddy bring me go eat again...wahaha....growing fatter and fatter.....>_<

today after sch actually wana go jp with candy bt then end up having girls chat at the atrium....taking turn to cry sia...cant control mind too end up also crying....think of the past memories with jk.....take bus with candy go home also crying...haiz.....reach my house down stair....end up decided to giv him a call.....chat a while.....also dun wan distract him in class....then go home....sun bian wait for my eye not so red then go home if not going to be ask again....sob sob

this were taken last week which my mood was very bad everyone in class was asking me wat happen....and those whom i told they should knw...ya...haven been crying ....so ugly eye beg comming out liao...haiz....yea took these photos at jurong point(jp)......

today OOAD2 lesson teacher ask we all draw our own dream house consist of 5 people.....bt i din draw...see them draw very funny liao...wan to knw wat my dream house is leh....can have time go watch the korean drama --FULL HOUSE---yea that is my dream house.....dam beautiful and class..haha...after that teacher teaching bt dunno why i din pay attention....suddenly have the urge to draw then auto take pencil and paper start drawing.....yea the photos u saw is my end products....i my self was shock cos i can nvr manage to draw just suddenly have the feel and that the our come....haha..so proud of my end product wahahah.......

yea today we have class outing went bugis to have steamboat.....was fun and took a lot of photos....however on the way there wasnt so smooth.....i and candy was almost knock down by a van when it U-turn just a few cm more to go......i was in a great shock.....very scary can hear the girls screaming.....then on the way back home taking bus.....think back that incident.....suddenly my heart feel so hai pa.....feel like crying.....hope anyone close can giv me a hug to warm my soul back immediately.......wanted to look for someone.....wanted to call him at least can distract me....bt then i dun dare.......msg him no reply....so wu zhu......

最近一直在听歌，听到这首歌每次都会让我想起他。《永远在身边》 现在起也只有回忆。

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昨天约了他吃晚餐，也同时把那封信和卡都还给他。当时他的表情我都会依依的把它藏在心里, 至少我还知道他很舍不得会难过。我尽量地保持微笑的面对他，但我想他也感受到我心里不开心悲伤的感觉，也笑得很勉强。不停的说笑逗我开心，拼命得想开解我，要我说出心事，可我却牢牢地被在心了不肯说。吃了饭无聊得走着不知去哪里好，结构陪他到NTUC买东西。过后他有事所以我叫他先回家，可他却要看我先回他才肯回，但我拒绝了。

当时的心情很不好，面对他我又不知道说什么，结果他先回，而我在那里走走散心。其实见了他心情好一点，或许该是时候把它放下，心里只有回忆。爱情的砸门也该是时候关了。我知道爱情要来事主挡不住的，但或许要再次打开我的心，融化我的心会很难。或许暂停爱情是最好的选着吧。我很想看到他读了那封信之后，有什么感觉，表情又是怎样。但我没那勇气让他在我面前读，虽然他有问我能不能。回忆都是回忆，或许接下来应该珍惜现在的友情把。

haiz this sunday think still will meet up with him ba.....xin xiang jian ta, ke you bu zhi dao jian dao ta le yao zhen yang mian dui. xin qing hao mao dun. zui jin wang wai pao, shan shan xin...

说真的爱情到底是什么？我到现在都不知道，对爱情有恐惧感。从此不再相信爱情吗？拨了我一盆冷水就这样不了了之吗？现在我心的感觉真的不懂得形容，真的很想每样东西都停止，让我好好的呼吸。我真的无法开心起来，笑容不见了。我还能撑多久？连续两次的伤害，我到底几时才能恢复原来的我？不管在哪有好几次不知不觉地都想哭，很难自拔。心好痛好辛苦。

19th oct

yup last night i din slp at all have been tearing all the way......haiz...in the end morning eye swell.....dam sian.....wo xian zai wu fa ba shi qing shuo chu kou.... zi neng shou zai xin li......bu zhi dao zen mo ban cai hao.....xin hao lei hao lei.....zhen xiang ting zhi xin tiao....ting zhi hu xi.....ting zhi shi jian....ting zhi yi qe.....

17th oct

tody first day of my IS ...abit sian dunno like or dislike this module...cos sometimes very boring....talk abt cultures, homework to do, things to memorise...dam sian ba...bt however due to the homwork ...aft class when to watch a jap drama title BE WITH YOU....very nice and touching....i watch until cry sia.....then just now went online to search see whether can watch online again bt cant they dun have so sad.....now gt to do IS homework haiz....

during break time give him a call then was shock to realise that he was on mc today...ha he fall sick liao....have been slping the whole day.....then at night gt class ....ha force him to take med..

from that drama i suddenly think of many things.....all abt love....shen me jiao ai qing???shen me jiao zhen xi???haiz..anyway...

btw that jay chou song 周杰伦 - 说好的幸福呢, really let me recall of the past dam painful and shang gan....

back to sch work my accounting !!!! arhhhh!!!..i dun understand wat she is teaching...i cant even start to do my homework.....stare blank at the paper...sob...aft that lesson fast look for jiu bing.....ask them teach me...see ba blame my sch y force us to take A maths nt POA....haiz....
hope i can start to adapt and catch up....omg

13th Oct

1st day of sch....was shock that our DM teacher is our last year DB teacher Mr chen....haha.....so far first lesson is his ok loh at least is knw each other de not so stiff......then here come the DWA haha dunno consider lucky or wat our class have 2 teacher to help us..wah so good sia...at least gt help immediately......also the 2 teachers also not bad very friendly and patient us...today have our first practical with them so far quite fun and instructions are clear and easy to follow....at least satisfied and enjoy....although sometime a bit blur haha......

yea back to sch....might have difficulties to mian dui someone ba.....btw thanks for yr lucky stars that push me through from now on....at least now i feel better and alright as compare to the first part morning of the day.....1 question i was wondering asking candy.....does the whole class knw abt it long ago already???...bt anyway wat is past is past won care to think and borther again....yea from now on i was to chiong on my studies haha (like wat i told some of the girls today)....as for u my lucky star :P knw u will be mo mo de support me...let see wat the ending of us as time past ba....:P

haiz now at home think fall sick liao.....very tired, slpy,like going to have fever like that...dam sian...no mood to do work.......and the worst thing is i din slp well last night 2 to 3 am then fall sick and wake up at 8am....omg lah so slpy and my eyes dam pain....haiz.....and U also better take care of yrself hear from u that u are falling sick soon....feel cold...think u gt cold liao....have time better go see doctor get some med and recover......dun wish u to fall sick....k lah tired liao...pen off here...jia you everyone....here we go hahah...lalallalalalalal:P

yup back to blog 2 more day to sch reopen le....hope new semester start will be a going smoothly ba....yea ytd was dam angry with my mum qi shi ren liao....yea tmr going to rebond my hair ....candy bringing me go there...hmm....dunno the rebonding out come good ma......cos last time rebond once still not bad....although not a popular saloon.....bt very exp hair cut + treatment+rebonding $156+ if i nvr remember wrongly...hope this time around can find a hairstyle that should me.....hao qi dai tmr arh...

2nd Oct

back to 2nd Oct went out with him to suntec to watch movie....ok that movie quite touching bt a bit er xin...ok lah bt pian yi le ta gt chance to see my timd expression...haha....yes took Jap language as Is module...just nice borrow the jap book that he has to learn a bit first...he say gt learn before bt forget liao....haiz.....sad case if not he can teach me some first haha.....

ha went timezone i think.....see him play i din play.....see him have fun..haha...especially kan ta catch softtoy de shi hou very funny ........feel happy when see him do that..think may be becos of he sure fail to catch one de...heehee....

after movie he send me back to clementi.....on the way to mrt....mummy ask me to buy bread for tmr breakfast so i buy loh....then when i take back my latop from him was shock that he bought a present for me...stunned bt surprised and happy ba......he dam shy lah....face red red geh....haha huo xu zhe xie shou wei de guo cheng ba....then he ask me go home then open then ok loh

on the way back home on bus open up his gift...was surprise that he bought a neckless -->star pandant"lucky star" very nice....read the card he wrote to me....can see hua le hen duo xin shi....lots of drawing and made effort to write in english......very cute and beautiful drawing...thanks very much wor....i knw the han yi for that lucky star, ye hui hao hao de zhen xi......

this few weeks hardly chat on phone cos no suitable timing.....and my msg going to exceed liao....die.....we both gt moody times xin shi chong chong....ya sometimes hard to communicate ba....bu zhi dao...haiz...

永远在身边歌词：

Baby boy永远永远手牵手

一步两步一起走

永远永远要记得

我们要一起生活

不管晴天的时候

不管下雨的时候

不放开手到永久

我们要一起生活

眼泪 她为你流过 也为自己掉过

对於你们的爱 她总是抱着坚强的笑容

错过那些时间 谢谢她的守候

是时候 紧紧牵她的手 带她到你的城堡里

最近还好吗 想念的心开不了口

枯想着你有没有好好过 担心着你每天生活

你好吗 最近如何 照顾身体工作加油

我一个人也会勇敢好好过 不让你担心多一秒

想念着 每天每秒我们故事 每天每秒说好的事

两个人一起散步 是最浪漫的事

你是我的天使 给我力量能够坚持

那些关心问候 翅膀一样的双手

是我最幸福的所有

心里面有你建的角落

脆弱时我能够躲一躲

你爱我 像翅膀一样温柔的手

我要抱着你不要再错过

你的爱 是最蓝那片天空

cuz baby girl I’m coming back home

Baby boy永远永远手牵手
一步两步一起走
永远永远要记得
我们要一起生活

不管晴天的时候
不管下雨的时候
不放开手到永久
我们要一起生活

幸福 少了你在身边不会完整

人潮中朝你走来那张可爱微笑的脸孔

这份爱 不是悸动 守护一辈子的感动

这段路踏着幸福的每一步一起牵着手

心疼你会睡不好 总是缩在床的一角

我要回来给你依靠 哄你看你笑着睡着

照片里 你的微笑 我们甜蜜得打闹

好希望微风把思念 代替我亲吻你嘴角

想念着 每天每秒我们故事 每天每秒说好的事

约定好去看的风景 爱谱成了诗

你就是我的天使 给我力量能够坚持

阳光灿烂午後 我又在街上走

你的影子不再寂寞

想到你的身边到不了

像个路人般看热闹

经过那个属於我们的转角

走过两个人曾经逛的街

那些店 还有熟悉的画面

oh baby girl I’m coming back home

Baby boy永远永远手牵手
一步两步一起走
永远永远要记得
我们要一起生活

不管晴天的时候
不管下雨的时候
不放开手到永久
我们要一起生活

没有办法想像 那画面

一个孤独的背影走在 小公园

一颗心 需要暖 一双手 需要牵

故事要有美好结局 需要两双手来写

永远 不是只出现在童话里的梦

在身边 眼泪加了蜜糖甜

这句点 要完美画在无名指上

承诺的开始

恋人们 要一起珍藏