colleagues

dam miss u all sia..so many thing wan talk to u all....:P...this few week gt contact back her haha...miss her although she say very bord there nothing to do...hmmm...may be becos of having 4 more new clerks that make the work load less ....arhhhh...exam faster over and holiday faster come....wan go back office and see them...haha....sian....so stress full this few weeks ..so many assignment...and is like the due date is no end de....keep continuing...oh mend...haiz

so sort dealing with WAD now seem like going to finish bt then the process still like having long way.....sob sob....shufen, mei fen can rescue me wahhahaha.... wish u and him chang chang jiu jiu....hear from u that u going overseas with him then good loh... first time experience travelling with yr bf ....feeling nice and shuang ba...haha...although will be a bit boring cos most of them are his friends bt gt him enough liao...not bad right...heehee...wondering how is the rest the boss, the 2 cousins.heehee

haiz plan later print all the exam notes and lecture slides....dunno gt time ma....:O

失去了才会珍惜.

Sort of read this post from someone blog, is like wat he say inside seems to be true even though sometime we dun even notice it. Funny right, ownselves also dunno... haiz..sometimes do wonder why are we like that?????
hahaha who knws sia....after reading this let me recall of my colleague, although she is older than me many cycle, bt i think she say things are always right and logic ba...base on my point of view :P Girls tense to think a lot while guys dun...is that true??? that y they take for ganted?????真心爱你就会为你而付出??????
失去了才会珍惜????????

"Feeling of grievances and kinda anger is slowly turn to sadness.... i find myself wallow in them quite alot recently... which is what i think is the theory of "grass is always greener on the other side".. when u r attached, u see pple can do wat they like... go club, go poker or watever la... den u are like controlled and stuff.. so u kinda wanna break free and stuff... when u r single.. u discover tt the club stuff, poker stuff and all is not what u wanted afterall... to get those, u lost someone who is always there for u... someone to share ur happiness, to go eat nice stuff tt u wanna eat.. go make sure tt u will not be lonely... someone to call to n to lament all ur grievances to... someone to hold... someone to get u thru lonely nights n stuff.. den suddenly it dawn upon u tt maybe wat is given up is not worth for what get? and den wat else? juz... a tot... n a reminder to pple... cherish the pple ard u.. cos... u nv know wat u r taking for granted.... "

Tired

yes today is saturday and guess wat everyone is have fun, enjoying themselves, while me being very stressful marking on my ASSIGNMENTS which is going to due in a week time. dam tired and having headache now.....how i can split myself into 2 and can do multi-tasking, or better can have smarter brain and cut short my work timing.....

and yea my medical report turn out to be fine bt i still gt to continue my medicine unless i have cough back again....and yes ytd after visit doctor when shopping with parents at Jurong Point and bought many thing at John Little ....haha dad bought me a sandal $19.90 which i want long ago...haha now i can change sandal liao....rainy day no need worry abt slippery...wahahah...

tmr sunday will be going out to have buffet at restraunt with my grandparents and relative...yummy miss food......and dessert..:P
think i having fever now....forehead dam hot now.....

Upset

Seriously sometimes i do wonder,

how strong can my tolerance be?

Can a boyfriend being shared by 2 girl,

at the same time,and pretend to be nothing happen?

Just dun understand y,y is that, that everything u do,

sure gt to be link by her? Do u ever think of my feelings?

So what we have a chat, and told u everything, does it help?

U dont even understand, and ti liang my xin qing?

I gt to knw after we patch back a day later?

Can i realy let go of the past, and take it as nvr happen before?

Why am i so soft hearted? Why do i have to under go this?

Why must u lie and broke yr promise once again?

As for today, u still dare to ask me whether i am angry or not?

U tell me what should i ans? Are u going to hide it from me once again?

What if i nvr went to yr house, and nvr read her blog, what will happen?

How many time could i close my eyes and not to think abt it?

Is this all i can get from u? Or is he my "MR RIGHT"?

Now i knw why u din even online.

You can even face the hamsters for the entire day.

While leaving me there alone, worst thing is not even a msg from u.

What is all this?

yea today was sort of dam tired sia, first time feel like skip class dam sain and tired.....assignment due date is getting closer and closer....may be not enough sleep ytd night ba...keeping waking up on and off. afraid i miss call or msg nvr reply. due to him ba...ytd night call me and tell me he is very unwell, having fever on off this few nights,kena nose bleeding, cough also bleed and etc....shock me sia duno wat to do haiz....then he told me he went toilet a while bt end up take so long...make me worry

and i did a stupid thing, cant call his house number, end up msging to his house dam qiu, end her mum reply by voice msg...haiz :( then she went up check on him...and told her is me who msg...so gan ga...bt no choice...

now ending up i lack of slp ...haiz

today is a long day to me. dam tired and exhausted now. overload with so many assignments and i feel dead....:(
nothing nice abt sch nowadays.....Ooad1 is due on 21 July and gt to complete by this friday.....jialat i have not do my part yet for my INDIVIDUAL assignment..AHHHHH....
now come the Database due 28th July, lot of work to be done, i wan to die liao...this few weeks gt to burn midnight oil to chiong with my team mates....
Next one come the WAD which i hate most, so tough, the assigment and first stage of submition is on 28th July...arhhhhhh...crash with Database..omg
last assigment which i have not get will be the EBF, which may be getting tmr ba..no idea....dam sian...
can god give me more brain juice and multi hands so that i can do a few things at a time....hmmm....stress....wish myself good luck ba..brain dead now...so tired

Dad Car

yes, i am here. ytd was a special day ba.....heehee my brother birthday....haha turn 16 already dun be naughty....must ting hua.....then at night whole family went to KFC to have dinner...ok lah quite nice and tasty bt exp exit $30...hahabt nvm daddy or mummy is paying wahahaha.....

and yes most important thing is my DADDY's CAR have arrived....went to the car center to collect his new car.....waoh....very class....very nice....inside sure no need to say very comfortable...haha...first time have our own car....very shuang....then went to buy season parking.....his car dam sparkling sia can reflect de....hope i gt one when i have my driving lisence....:(....the car music audio also very shuang....when gt time i take some photos and then upload haha.

borrow his psp back home to pay...the battery can last 3 day end up one 1 1/2 day only...m brother la....keep playing until no bat....dunno is i play or he play....haiz...bord weekends..

其实今天作的决定使佛对还是错，听了你今天的对话，可我的心犹豫不定。虽然最后还是接受了你，但你能保正同样的事不会再犯错吗？说是在的当时我的心情很矛盾，我没有信心，我也很累，害怕再被伤害。看到你苦苦的哀求下，但最后还是给了你一个月的期限，最后决定在与我。我会害怕，也会担心，我到底快乐吗？，能在次相信他吗？，满脑子的问题，是我一时心软吗？

雨泪

男孩和女孩是一对男女朋友，男孩很花心，但女孩对男孩很专情。女孩很爱雨天，也喜欢淋雨。 每当女孩跑出伞外淋雨时，男孩往往也想陪着她一起淋雨， 但都被女孩给阻止了。

男孩总问："为什么不让我陪你一起淋雨呢？"
女孩总回答说："因为我怕你会生病！"
男孩也会反问她："那你为什么要去淋雨呢？"

但女孩总是笑而不答。 最后往往是男孩拗不过女孩而答应了她的要求， 因为男孩只要看到女孩开心就很快乐，但幸福的时光总是不会长久的。男孩喜欢上另一个女孩，喜欢她的程度更胜于她。

有一天当男孩和女孩吃饭的时候， 他提出了分手的要求，而女孩也默默的接受了。 因为她知道男孩像风，而风是不会为了任何人而停留的。
那天晚上，是男孩最后一次送女孩回家。 在女孩家楼下，男孩吻了女孩最后一次。
男孩说："真抱歉，辜负了你！但是陪你在一起淋雨是我最快乐的时光！"

女孩听完便抽泣了起来，男孩抱着她。许久以后， 男孩跟女孩说："有一个问题我想问你已经很久了，为什么每一次你在淋雨时都不让我陪呢？"

许久之后女孩缓缓的说："因为我不想让你发现……我在哭泣！"那一天晚上，又下起了雨……

Is me back again....thanks tang guo:P just read yr email during the lesson....现在的我好累啊，没办法专心做任何事。前天和你吵架，问了你一个问题，可你却没回答我。对我说你不明白我的简讯，我真的搞不懂为何别人都看得懂，可你却看不懂。是有意的吗？说真的我收到（regarding ytd post that msg)第一个反应，你会做同样的举动来对待你那gv trusted 女友，可你却给我那种简讯，一串串的眼泪不停的在我心里流下.

stupid health something happen again...dun feel well during EBF lesson.....giddy come back......this is sux mend.....and u giving me stupid temper...anyway u go ahead ba.....non of my problem liao....dun even need to bother u from now on...everything is done....without u i also can live....no need depend on u...

我想你不知道吧。。。昨天当我受到你那则简讯，我的心简直沉默了，在那一霎那，突然间觉得没有一个关心我的人在我身边安慰我，逗我开心。难道你的电话账单爆了会比起我来的重要吗？你又不是不知道我最近为什么不开心（clue:home），当我难过的时候，多么想收到你的简讯。可是没有，这也就算了，想找你聊天，传了这么多简讯没有回应，你说你在睡觉，我明白，那也就算了。可你竟然在其中的简讯说“erm, if you want to reply short sms,i rather u dont wor...cos i dont wan my bill to burst again.”我的心情会如何？告诉你，而你又回应我什么？“But really mah, you reply ok lo equal to not replying....At least type more mah....or say something else....if not how i reply u.” :( Is that so difficult for u to msg me..?我不知道，像一个突然失明的瞎子，在黑暗的世界里摸索，寻找突然失去方向的迷宫, 很无助。每一次的哭泣，每一次的伤心，心痛，你看得到吗？感觉得到吗？没有？对你而言，你只知道我只会乱发脾气， 不明白势力，只会说我嫉妒，但你有没有站在我的立场想一想，考虑我的感受。u throw temper on me can, bt i can't throw temper on you.......wat is this.....told myself not to blog on u when i start my new blog....bt i can't tahan anymore....is pain..upset...disappointed...stunned....sob..i wan a happy life ....bt can i?

我只想要

我只想要

怎么说忘就忘记这甜蜜的过去

被思念包着厚厚的糖衣

不想再为了你伤心这最冷的夏季

慢慢地慢慢结成冰

承诺变悲哀悲哀因我被爱

悲哀是因为你不在

我好想抱着你诉苦却显得好无助无助

的让人想痛哭

我只想要和你在一起

朝着幸福走去

像恋人般的简单甜蜜

我只想要和你不分离

怎么轻易放弃

说你忘记

爱情怎么会让每颗心都碎

我不再相信你

却又慢慢想起你

我想这一定是报应都怪我太贪心

才让你头也不回的离去

黄色丝巾是想念在树上被风吹

孤单的孤单一个人无法沉睡

check up

this morning when NUH for heart scan, it took 1 hr to finish, and she press until dam pain.....hazi yea gt to do with my heart again.....no ending check up dam sian.....no mood...
then my IS suddenly gt problem and i am heeadache now.....seem like tmr going to sentosa again to complete it..:0
seem like dad have decided to buy a grey car...hope it turn out nice....
hope tmr turn out right ba....